Hello Thursday

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I’m working on a theory this week. What if I work out AND do a little something I enjoy every single day? There’s a lot about my life that is all obligations and schedules and responsibilities. I’m a mom, I run a business, I have a home to take care of. Honestly, by Wednesday I’m usually trashed - just so wiped out I can barely see straight.  So, yeah, I’ve tried the whole working myself into the ground route, and now I’m trying something new. Passion and workouts (side note, I’m saying “workouts” and not “health,” because I don’t really have the whole healthy living thing happening, that’s a bit too much work for me right now).  

Don’t get me wrong, bills still have to get paid, kids still have to be mommed. I didn’t quit my job and decide to go live on a yoga commune,  but I AM actively creating space for myself.  And even that, I’m having to work at. But I think it’s a good thing.

So my passion project this week has been writing. I am challenging myself to write something every day, even if it’s small. Writing isn’t my job, I’m not the best at, but I really enjoy it. I don’t always have much to say, but I just like the act of writing, it’s cathartic.  And you know what. I made time for a small piece of passion and a daily workout and I had more energy for my obligations. I’ve actually been able to get more done.  What I found is that I had to do it in a way that made sense for me in order to stick with it. So with my daily workouts I’m not going to go hard every day. I’m just not! Sorry. I have one day where I do a lot, the other days I’m content with a one mile jog and some sit ups.  I’m not winning any fitness awards, but im doing what feels good and it’s manageable and now I actually look forward to it, instead of dreading it and finding reasons not to do it - like “Oh sorry, I’m too busy drinking this bottle of wine to do a sit up!”  😮😮😮🤣🤣🤣 With writing, I’ve been working on a book, but I’m stuck and it’s irritating the shit out of me, so then I get discouraged and don’t want to write at all.  So instead, I’m doing daily shorts on my blog. Which is fun and manageable.  Seriously, “manageable” is the word of the hour. I NEED MANAGEABLE!! But really, the two things play off of each other.  I need my passion and my fitness. One without the other just wasn’t cutting it for me.

This week I had two PTSA meetings for my kids school, hosted a staff meeting, hosted a work committee meeting, hosted a work party, mommed (doesn’t it seem like “mom” should be a verb??), paid bills, decorated for Halloween, etc etc. The point is that I would normally be passed out from exhaustion by Wednesday. It’s Thursday and I’m still coherent! Winning!! My feet ache, my body aches, and I am very tired. But not exhausted. I’m not drained. Does that make sense?? Like, my spirit is still awake and ready to take on more!💃🏿💪🏾🍾...perhaps after a nap.

Special shout out to my folks who have been whispering (very loudly) in my ear about finding a passion. 

So the question is, can I keep it going? 

Crystal Ahmadi